Nobody cares about what I write. I can’t fight the need to get this all out on paper, though. Reminds me of one of my favorite Anna Nalick songs, Breathe. “It’s no longer inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to.” That is why I write, for myself. I share some of what I write because of the small hope it comforts another who relates.
Anniversaries of traumatic events and losses can be a lot to take in and process. There’s no right or wrong way to feel. Here is my personal grief response to this past year, since the reality of the global pandemic hit home.
Why can’t I throw this away? It certainly doesn’t bring me joy, but it brings me comfort.
All this “fight” talk is outdated to me. It just implies our inability to accept what is and work with it. Until we accept it is what it is, change inefficient ways, love all parts of ourselves and world, we won’t move into anything different.
I first started thinking about this a few years ago when I learned part of my genetic history. Cancer makes people feel like they need to fight. Similar to how pandemics make people feel like they need to fight the virus. I don’t think that’s the solution.
No illness or struggle of any form is a competition. Each is valid. Each matter. When I say, my depression was incredibly severe and I was told by psychiatrists and doctors that it may never lift, I do not say it to imply I had it worse than anyone else or to get sympathy. I say it because I want to emphasize that overcoming even the most severe cases of anything is very possible. I say it to motivate. To inspire. To help.
Avoidance. We all do it. Avoid things that we know will set our soul on fire and make us who we are meant to be. We hold ourselves back for various reasons. Too much work, worry of what others think, too much money, worry about being selfish, worry about losing someone/something/ourselves. All these things and more I like to sum up in the category of, avoidance.
Music has played a substantial part in my healing journey to health and well being. This blog is about how the New Kids On The Block helped to heal my inner child and teenager, who I affectionately refer to as “Little Kara.”
I started Bounce Energy Healing because the time has come for me to tell my story and to help others in a profound way. I wish to pass along wisdom I’ve gained from years of suffering.